Actor Maisie Williams lately spoke about her traumatic childhood relationship along with her father, whom she stated her mom “escaped” when she was an toddler.
In an interview on Steven Bartlett’s “Diary of a CEO Podcast,” the 25-year-old mentioned her life earlier than she catapulted to stardom at age 12 as Arya Stark on “Game of Thrones” and spoke concerning the lasting results of her childhood on her psychological well being.
“Well, I, as a young child before the age of, like, 8, had a traumatic relationship with my dad,” she revealed. “And I don’t want to go into it too much because it affects my siblings and my whole family.”
“But, like, that really consumed a lot of my childhood. Ever since I can remember, I’ve really struggled sleeping. And I think a lot of the traumatic things that were happening, I didn’t realize that they were wrong.”
Williams stated her mom “escaped when I was about 4 months old.”
When she was 8 years outdated, the scenario along with her father “had met its peak,” Williams stated, and a trainer at her faculty took her to the employees room and requested her what was happening.
“And she was saying, like, ‘What’s wrong,’ you know, like, what’s happened? Are you hungry?’ … ‘Did you eat breakfast?’ I said, ‘No.’ And she said, ‘Oh, why not?’ And I said, ‘We just don’t have any breakfast.’ And then she says, you know, ‘Do you normally have breakfast?’” she recalled.
“They were asking the right questions,” she added, breaking down in tears.
“My mum came to school and picked me up. It was the first time that all of the doors were open, and it was the first time things were on the table,” she stated.
“I still wanted to fight and say these things aren’t wrong, that you’re just trying to take me away from my dad.
“I was indoctrinated in a way. I think that’s why I’m obsessed with cults,” she added. “Because I’m, like, I get it. I get it. I was in a child cult.”
Ultimately, Williams stated, she was glad she didn’t must see her dad anymore, however she nonetheless struggled with conflicting feelings.
“You can feel so liberated and free and at the same time, just like that impending doom is kind of still there,” she stated.
Williams stated that she battled identification, anxiousness and psychological well being points as a toddler and younger grownup however that she’s been coming to phrases with what she skilled.
“To be honest, I have been thinking about this a lot. It’s not because of me that these bad things happened when I was a child,” she stated. “I thought it was. I through there was something inherently wrong with me, that it could be anyone experiencing the pain.”
“It made me more interested in the guy. What could make you mistreat your own children? What happened to you as a kid? Did you pull the legs off bugs? Did you learn all this?”
“That’s how I feel about him now. He would make a fascinating documentary.”
Williams has spoken previously about how her psychological well being suffered from an early age from a mix of fame and negativity on social media.
“I went through a huge period of my life where I’d tell myself every day I hated myself,” Williams stated on the time.
In her newest interview, Williams revealed she drew on her traumatic childhood experiences as a younger actor on “Game of Thrones.”
“I was doing interviews, and I remember people sort of being, like, but you’re so young. How do you show this pain?” she recalled. “And in my head I was, like, ‘That’s a really stupid question.’ Because I’ve known how that feels.”
“It’s hugely influenced everything that I do as an actor. I get to access all of that confusion and pain in my job, and I get to really feel it in every fiber of my being.”
Watch the podcast episode beneath.